STPM

Right now. I'm so scared where this road will take me.

I need to find my way and pull myself through. I really must believe in doing my best.:)

In my mind

Lady Head Prefect? No longer one. Hehehee. AGM took place yesterday and I can officially say that I'm a retired LHP prefect. Now all I have to do is a lil' paperwork updating, pass on the knowledge that I have to the current lady head and I can go off-duty. Oohoo!:D Although I'll also definitely cherish the learning process and memories with the board indeed.

MUET results are out. I really am thankful.:)

Exams are drawing near. :S I'm scared because I really know there's not enough time to complete all that I need to cover in my syllabus. But even then, I still end up wasting time and falling asleep (early sumore) every night, instead of studying. I'm so lazy. Omo. Sighs. I hope that the motivation will come to me cos I really need it. That fire and powah to try, I really must.:)

The situation doesn't change. Its just a different shade of grey everytime. Really, I don't have to watch a korean drama. Why? Because I feel like I'm already in one myself. Aiseh. :) I've even pictured the ending countless times. Ridiculously, that image keeps coming back to me.

That's all for now.

Bye bye blogsphere!:D

:)

Why am I cornered like that?

Never mind,

sooner or later, it'll all be over.   

2 more months to go.

Keep calm and put in the effort.

Go go go! :D

Determine

 It may sound so subtle when putting it into words but if you were in my shoes, then you'll know, it really isn't.

 

 Everytime I think about it even in the slightest bit, tears start welling up in my eyes and flow endlessly down my cheeks. I don't know what hurts me the most ; them, my pride or all that has happened. All I know that it has left a scar within me and this time, I find myself unable to pick myself up like how I always do.

All I know is that even the nicest people have their limits. You lose all that sense of positive thinking because you've tried all the kind of ways to make them realise what's going on and see the point. Its even more frustrating to know that you can never completely back off, let go or ignore them because you've tried and it didn't work. They're always there in your sight or at the back of your mind. The worse part is, there's so much that you had to put up with. So did everyone else, in their own ways.

 

Cos the truth is, everyone needs a little bit of everyone. They need you and you need a little of them too.

 

And so, this vicious cycle repeats.

Except, this time, it has to stop. I don't want to continue to be like this any longer.

Because being so affected by it is and was really one of the biggest mistakes that I've unconsciously made all this while. 

Dare you to move

There must be a reason why we're all intertwined like this. Like as though we're all put to test and to learn something out of it, a tragic serendipity. Sometimes, this endless cycle that repeats again and again, it just seems a lil' hard to bear. But when there's no choice, what other way than to learn from it, be strong and hope for the best?

Sports day. Prefects interview. Bio assignment. MUET speaking exam. All over. Phew. Another busy week ahead.

Positive! :)

It was a pretty good week.

If every day was a happy day, I'd be happy. :)

Also, I should get my priorities straight and don't take time for granted any longer. Because if I were to continue to do so, I'd waste my time being in form 6. So I gotta change for the better! Really must must must! =)

Endure

Why does history always repeat? :(

All I have to do is endure with a smile no matter how much it weighs me down.

Because I must, I will and I can do this! :)