Bits, of late

I received my UTAR offer letter last week.

I drove down to Kampar to check out my accommodation yesterday morning. Its my first experience driving on an 'almost-highway-like' road accompanied by my dad by my side and mom at the backseat. The accommodation is decent (from what we saw) but I still felt a tinge of sadness that I'm gonna leave home soon although its not that far away from home. Just a 40 minute drive back to Ipoh. I guess studying in Form 6 made me a much 'home-lier' person than I thought I was. :/ On the bright side, I hope to have good housemates. Hope they're nice. :)

24th April. Received my overall results for STPM. I should just say here. Its definitely not 4 flat. Its actually way off the perfect score or even a decent average score. I got 1B+, 2Bs and 1C. I guess getting my initial for a grade isn't a good thing at all. Of course I feel the big fat regret. Partially for my half-hearted attempts and mostly because of my lack of focus throughout Form 6. A big portion of it as the latter. It was really my fault for not being able to overcome those shortcomings. Aihs. However, in terms of my experience gained in Form 6, I wouldn't trade that with anything else. :) In fact, if given a chance, I would certainly like to re-live my Form 6 life with a better grasp of what to expect but it's just a thought, reflective but actually insignificant at this point alrd.

Leaving that aside, I went shopping with my mom today.:)) Really shopping. :D Given the freedom to shop, without feeling guilty of keeping others waiting (aka my dad. HAHA), we did so cos dad wasn't wif us. We bought a lot of stuffs, a new iron, kettle, curtains and clothes. I've never tried out so many clothes in my life before. Hehhee. We were even lucky that what was on our shopping list was on sales. Bedsheets and pillows. It was a 1 hour promotional deal and it saved us some cash. :)) Mom must have spent a lot (thankiuu) and she said jokingly that its a pay forward sum which I'll have to deduct from my bank account and repay her back later in the future (when I'm older). Haha. :P

Ohya, lately, I love eating things that 'explodes' in my mouth. YUMSS. Like the cherry tomato on a hot plate, the yellow bun sold at dimsums and peanut butter doraeyaki. How it bursts and the fillings slowly fill my entire 'mouth cavity'. Wkakaka.  But the catch is to eat it and not spill it all over the place. I happened to dirty my shirt while eating doraeyaki today at Jusco food court. Two kids at the next table where their parents went off to buy food got off their seats and came close by to watch as the peanut butter spilled onto my shirt and I tried wiping it off. Aiyoo. I got some 'funny' and curious looks from people who happened to glance at me or look at my tees in particular. The best part was I shopping all over Jusco with that shirt. Haha.

The other day, I bought 3 jeans too. I like the colours. But aahs, why are their pockets made to be fitting in a way that its just too small to fit my wallet, car keys and handphone in it. Or more like, my wallet is too big and bulky maybe. Why can't they design bigger pockets? That's why I actually prefer wearing those loose pants though people always ask me why I wear them? My Muet teacher said aiyoo, crystal, again. En Li tells me that her friends used to ask her why I always wear pyjamas to tuition back then. Aish. Actually cos its comfy and convenient ma though it may look abit sloppy. :P  And I feel safe with the foreknowledge of having my wallet and everything kept tucked in the pockets of my pants.

Other than that, I thought I could kinda 'curi tulang' or be excused from completing my work at my dad's office too. However, dad said I must finish up everything before I leave for uni cos I can't get a job half done and leave it for the next person to finish it. It will be a mess. Noooohhh. Sobsob. But I have to because it makes sense. I'm an unofficial staff. I start work anytime I like, I do work when I want to, I read newspapers during office hours. Wkaka. But I guess in the end, work is work. Omies.

I wish to resolve one thing before I leave uni too.. Time really does tell. When there's no proper advice to take heed and no sure way of dealing with a matter, time is really the best remedy to everything. After yesterday, I think I've done all I can within my parameters.

Also, it was Pei San's birthday that day. Christmasss in April. :D She's a really nice person and friend that I met in Form 6. A major part of my Form 6 memories were with her, so thankiu doink. She'll not read this but gomawo. :)

Days are counting, I should not waste 'em! My holidays I mean. Wonk wonks! :)   

Take 5

Okay. I've decided to write as much as I can within 5 minutes and post this. Hehehheee :D

One. Its 12.15am. Its funny how I've been using English my whole life but I still come across a page from a book without knowing the contents of that whole page after re-reading it numerous times. Aiks!

Next. Final results will be out on 24th and it will officially be the end of Form 6.

Third, I've one minute left to go. I got a new Sony lappie. Hees :D

Lastly, I dunno what drama to watch at the moment but I feel a lil' sien and the exhausted feeling lately. For no apparent reason, maybe its because I stay too much at home. When was the last time I exercise? 7 months maybe. Omo.

Whops, exceeded the time limit  by 1,2,3.

Goodnight world. Welcome dreamland! :)

Miao Miao City

Playing Daft Punk- Get Lucky on youtube now. Although its quite an old song, I suddenly like the song for its simplicity and upbeatness. Wkaka. "The Voice: Kids" have lots of amazing voices on the show too. So talented.

Since I haven't blog bout my previous trip, I'm gonna blog bout my two Sarawak trips in Dec and April.

My recent trip, around 10 days, was relaxing and enjoyable. We went there mainly for qing ming actually but as a vacation too. :) Our relatives took the time off from work just to bring us around everyday and keep us occupied all the time. It was really nice of them to do so and it makes me feel touched that my mom's side relatives are always so knitted together as a family. This trip was an outing spree from morning til night everyday. Albeit tiring, it was enjoyable.

I tagged along with my relatives while they went for some traditional massage therapy at two different places. I didn't kena urut of cos but I go observed only while they cringe in pain. But it was really interesting to see how it works. Hahhaha. We also went for window shopping at the many newly-opened shopping malls despite the small crowd of shoppers, had late night suppers at food courts (Food Court 101 is the best), got sunburnt one side after spending the whole day with the necessary rituals for qing ming (cos I kept facing the sun on one side), tried out many new delicacies and food, visit a night market, travelled to green mountain temple, attended many family dinner treats, bonded with my cousins and aunties, babysit my little baby cousins and went around town filling our time. Before I know it, 10 days were already up. Neways, I didn't know babysitting kids was that energy-consuming. When they're playful and energetic, it can be really tiring to keep up with them but as they suddenly fall asleep or keep quiet, its really does feel odd that they're making no noise. 

My previous Sarawak trip in Dec was a special one too. We went there for two weeks so we had more time to do things. Aside from planning for my cousin's big day (her wedding) and attending that function, we had the chance to go on a long bumpy road trip stopping at many small towns on the way (I oso dun remember all the places alrd) but it was a memorable trip because it was a different experience which almost felt like an agricultural homestay trip. I remembered my butt aching while travelling on those bumpy, small roads since I was sitting at the last row of the van and there were potholes in those roads along the way to Sarikei. We spend two nights at my aunt's family's house in Sarikei. We got to pluck our own fresh fruits of many varieties, ate a bunch of them, trek through those lush vegetation plantation areas and had a big feast. After the feast, I remember feeling so full that I bathed and went straight to sleep after that. Hahha. What to do, we were staying in a place surrounded by forest anyway.  Other than that, we stayed a night at Damai beach, met up for a few family gatherings for different occassions, celebrated christmas and four birthdays including my mom's which was homemade bbq. Yummy! :) And also, overnight at my family home which is also my closest cousins' house.


I dunno when my next trip will be but I will definitely treasure these memories. I always feel a little heavy-hearted after my trip to Sarawak is over mainly because I love the noise and company there.:) Despite the language barrier wif my aunties, I think my mandarin also improve slightly after my recent trip. Haha.=) Somehow, the older I grow up, the more I realise how I appreciate my holiday trips to Sarawak. Maybe because I feel that as we're growing up, the less chances we'll have to go on family trips like these. Especially for a long period. Like how only my parents and I went for this trip when it was the whole family last time. Neways, I had a a great time over there. :D

I've also submitted my applications for uni already. Somehow, I can feel one chapter of my life is closing and a new one is about to start. I haven't blog about form 6 yet also. Aahs. One day I will.:) 

Currently in the midst of the final two episodes of To The Beautiful You which is actually showing on 8tv too but its only quarterway through. Its actually the Korean version of Hanakimi (the taiwan version starring Wu Chun and its a drama which I really liked last time). So it shares the same basic storyline of a girl disguising as a boy in a boy's school to meet the athletic high jump star. Similarly, this version is really cheerful and funny. Hahaha.:) I absolutely like the 2nd guy lead and main girl's friendship becos its just realli cute and cheerful. Wkaka. :D But the main guy lead is cool too. Hehee. However, the only problem with this drama is that it certainly falls short in terms of plot and character development in some ways compared to my other favourite dramas or the Taiwan version. Still, its worth watching and really heartwarming. Gonna finish up the last two episodes tonight! :)

Through Their Lenses

 Goodbye to maths statistics!!! Wkaka. :) I wish I had a lil' bit more time this afternoon but i guess what's done is done. All I can do is move on. Go go go! :D

Actually this post was saved as a draft for 2 days already. Neways, I was blog-hopping that day, just hoping that I'd find something new to read or updates of others. Then, I stumbled upon a random person's blog (someone who I dunno personally) and it made me realise how there are always others out there who share similar thoughts and feelings as we have. :) Even if coming across such people in real life may happen to exist in numbers of a few, one or even none at all.

That's when I discover many things through the extensive mass media in which I can relate to them in some ways or another. To me and like everyone else, I think we have different matters that truly concern us but whatever they are, one thing that's common is that it takes a deep place in our hearts. Thoughts that we ponder when we take a step back from the world and reflect on.

 It encompasses our reserved feelings and thoughts that we so often wish to share with our closed ones or at least someone whom we think we'd feel safe to keep our thoughts and feelings with. But sometimes, time and distance doesn't allow us to or they're left unspoken because we choose to keep them to ourselves. For some of us, we choose to voice our feelings and thoughts on the net. Sometimes, for the mere reason of wanting to just spill those words out to feel at ease without really expecting any opinion or anything. Then there's people like me who kepoh around and find comfort in other people's thoughts. Just like earlier, I read someone's posting and it actually kinda touched my heart. To know that, I wasn't the only one who would have felt troubled under those similar circumstances (especially regarding things we always thought as petty but actually isn't).
Thanks to the random person. :)

Like in my case, generally, expressing my feelings to others is just not my forte. I dunno if its me or just something out of habit, opening up doesn't come out that easily and naturally for me. Its bad cos for this reason, I'm often misunderstood. Sometimes also, when I say something aloud, it turns out differently from what I actually want to say and thisss, is the part I find myself frustrated abit sometimes. Sounds dum dum I know, but its true. Haha. So I really feel at ease if I get to write my feelings out instead, like on a blog or somewhere. Its much easier compared to verbal face-to-face talking (unless I am in that "deep talk zone"). But like blogging, I still have to take a long time to blog cos I need to go through what I write and see if that's what I actually am trying to say. Otherwsise, re-write lor which wastes loads of time (Like this post for example). But I think after going through Form 6, I feel that I can actually open up a little bit more towards people if I feel safe and secure. I've even become much noisier and Nosier?? Loll. Kddins bout the the latter. Hehee :)

So after 2 days since I read the post, I still feel the inspiration to mention it although I dunno if there's anything significant in saying these. Like how sometimes, I feel that kind of glad, thankful feeling when a person talks to me and indeliberately say something that's on their mind which I can relate all too well and its something I thought of too but never said out aloud. How I really appreciate it when people share stories or anything with me even when I may have little or nothing to add on. How its encouraging and inspiring to find that through virtual spaces with non-verbal contexts, mass media and people on social media, there are others sharing the same thoughts and feelings as I do. It may not always describe exactly all that I think or feel but at least I get to read something that reflects me in somewhere between those lines. The thought of "So true" and "Me too" upon seeing a person's posting.

 Thanks to them, I get to see myself and my world through theirs.:)

February Journey

You know there are days when you feel like the world's upside down and you feel the blues? Then, for a moment, you discover how blessed you are to be who you are, where you're at and to have this life? I'm feeling the latter despite my shortcomings.

Just came back from dinner wif parents and it was my first visit to the massage centre that my parents often go to. Parents actually just wanted to drop by for a moment but we ended up spending our time leisurely there for an hour. It was nice.:) I've always wanted to know how the interior looks like actually. hehe. *kepoh betull* And now I know. Wkaka. :P

I notice that I associate a lot of things or experiences with the word 'Nice'. I know its not the best word to desribe everything but I find it practical, easy and a convenient way to describe something  nicee?? Especially as a overall feeling kind. Hehe.

To summarize my time since my last post dated, I spent five days staying at KL during the chinese new year. I also cannot recall exactly what we did during that 5 days already except that we spent a whole day at i-City in Shah Alam on one of those days. It was quite fun.:) I really liked the Snowwalk place best. The trick art musuem was quite interesting too. For a RM10 entrance fee, it was quite worthwhile ler, the trick art place.

Then, we had a farewell for Krystle and Elaine at STG. Take caree buddies.=) It was nice to meet up wif everyone at the same time. :) And also, a quite last minute sleepover plan. I really had fun playing the piggy game and the odd/even card game too. Wkaka.:D We manage to watch a show at the cinema too. 'The Journey'. It was quite a nice and touching movie.:)

Then, sem 3 and retake results were out. I went back to school, ACS , just a few days back. Had a super longggg chat with Pui Kei. Talk crazy stuffs and about form 6. Hahhaa.:) Met Mr Mahendran (my sem 1 Pa tchr) by chance and he personally came up to me to ask about my plans. As I stood there and listened intently as he talked, I felt a sudden sadness deep down. But all I could do was smile because its my teacher who always reminded my classmates and I to appreciate and be thankful everyday.=) Had a group chat session wif Ms Mindy too. Coincidentally, the four of us in my muet group were there. :)

Aside from that, I went for the annual open house buffet invited by my mom's colleague. On one of the afternoons, met up wif my mom's close friend and afew others for lunch at Pusing restaurant as well. The yee sang there was yummmyy!:) The two aunties that I met was so cheerful and funny. Ahaha.:) I can understand now why aunties have always so much to talk. I like to listen to adults talk sumtimes. Not on gossip or vicious comments but those relatable stories and sensible talk. :) Afta that lunch session, I think I dun mind being an aunty next time. HAHA. Wif a few nice aunty friends alongside. Heheee. :D

There's a lot that I wan to write but enuf for now ler. Goodnite bloggie. :)

Counting stars

I've had a few weird dreams these past few days. One with my brother which felt real (I'll write in my next post). Another dream was downright creepy too. I dreamt I was injected forcefully by a lady. The next thing that happened as I woke up was that I was staring at my utterly unusual feet. I had 7 toes on my right foot and 6 toes on my left. I even remembered which toes were repeated. It wasn't at all ugly but just abnormally queer that I was almost in tears. When I actually woke up for real, I immediately stared at my feet and counted the number of toes I had altogether making sure I had 5 each. And because I was still pretty insecure, I recounted them again and again. Silly but true.  

 

Actually I'm writing this post with the diary feeling. Maybe, that's why its so hard to name posts for me because I usually 'dump' all my experiences and feelings together in one post until sometimes there's no main topic but instead, a bunch of topics. I love to write that way although its unsystematic and messy. Hehe.

 

People have been asking me what I'm doing at the moment and what I want to do next. I'm sure everyone has been here before at one point of their life. I wish I know the answer but in truth, I really don't know. As much as I pray and hope that I know, I still dun haf much an idea. Saying 'I don't know' when it comes to my future somehow sounds like I'm a lil' lacking, undecisive and uncertain too. Not that it should matter la. I have thought about my options but not thoroughly enough to feel like I'm confident of my stand or any stand. I know a little on some fields but feel like I don't know enough about it in particular oso, especially those art stream courses. Its like I have a range of options to choose from but feel like I've none at the same time. People say that its good to keep your options open ( I feel da same way) but when there's too many doors that you would like to consider, it becomes complex and confusing. When I try to close them down, I contemplate about it over and over again. Dilemma indeed. Sighs. That's why I've made a self-reminder to surf the net to find and dig info from time to time ( instead of just complaining here). I really hope that God and my 'shining stars' in heaven will guide me through this important phase of my life so that I'll make the right choices.

 

Set aside that issue, I had a good time during a last minute CNY shopping outing that day with the two doinks. :D I enjoyed myself a lot actually because it reminded me of our gradnite shopping. Something I dun often do with my friends.:)) I wished I could enjoy to the fullest but I felt sick, sleepy and also abit like a downer sometimes. I would have been more cheerful-er if I were healthy. Huhu. I wasn't sure why but I felt a lil' sad after everything. Maybe because we wouldn't get to do this for I dunno how long but all in all, it was a nice outing wif my awesome buddies. Thanks for a nice outing. =)

 

Today's Chor Yatt too so Happy CNY everybody! :) I'm enjoying myself so far. Hehheee. Yesterday, my family and I had a small reunion dinner before waiting till 11pm to pray at a temple. Quite fun ler! Hehee :D After praying, my bro and I get our free helping of tong sui. There were noodles too but we didn't eat ler. Whilst waiting for my mom, we were unexpectedly caught up in a festive unfold of events. It started off with a lion dance followed by a dragon dance that lasted for an hour plus. There's like a groundbreaking ceremony of firecrackers hung from the ceiling being lighted up also in between. Shortly after, there were temple helpers assuming as two gods dancing about. People started taking pics with them and chai sen ye appeared too. He carried baskets filled with sweets and everyone started crowding him and got into this frenzy mad rush to grab the sweets (in the hope of receiving goodwill and prosperity). Since my dad was joining in the crowd, I was one of them too!! Loll. We couldn't get any sweets at first (malangnya) but later on, we did ler. :) In the midst of the events, free angpaos were given out and another 'madness' happened. I didn't join in this time but just watched from a distance la. Seeing people's faces light up in delight throughout the event made me feel warm within too. I was smiling like an idiot sometimes and of course, caught other people doing that too. Lol :P It ended with a blast of fireworks display for quite sometime to mark the end of the event. It was indeed a speical day. Initially, I felt sleepy and lazy to go out. But after everything, I didn't regret going there since my family seldom get a chance to attend this kind of public events with a big turnout of people cos we always avoid traffic. So it was a memorable experience. :)

 

Bro bought me, my mom and dad CNY clothes too. So nicee of him.:) He bought me an unlikely clothing that I would ever buy, a cheongsam! Aiyok. I actually felt reluctant to wear it but aihs, I didn't want to make my bro feel like I dun appreciate it at all (because I actually like it very much. Its a nice design sumore) so in the end, I chose to wear it ler over my newly bought pants.:/ My relatives said the dress was nice so I told them my bro chose it for me wan and they told him he had good taste. Thankiu gor.:) Dad cooked kai choy too. My mom ask to cook 5kg of it. Crazy wann. Lol. But I'm sure we can finish it too. Hahhha. Helped to wash the veggie with my mom awhile before napping. Gonna eat now. Happy CNY again!!! :)

Trip and drama

My relatives came down from KL for the weekend. We always stay at their place wan when we're at KL and they do the same when they come down to Ipoh. It's like 'family homestay'. Hehee.

                A whole day outing on Saturday. We first went to Tambun to buy pamelos. Since we bought alot of pamelos, we got a complementary one. Hehee. Although I seldom eat it but tis pamelo was sweet and juicy. Yums. Had nasi lemak and fu chok yi mai for breakie at the shop near my house. I feel they make the nicest fu chok yi mai drink around. Really yummy. =) Next, we had a short pitstop at my house to leave all the pamelos behind before continuing our journey to our destination for-the-day! Tadadaaa. Sitiawan.:) Setiawan has this famous temple over there so we went there to pray. By the time, it was almost 3pm. So we had seafood for lunch in Sitiawan. It was yummy and worthwhile too.  Actually, we went Sitiawan to eat seafood a few times before ady but I think this restaurant we go to serves the best delicious dishes among all the few ones that we've tried so far dee ler. The pricing's reasonable and the foodie is fresh too.:) Our last stop was no other than a few Big Digit places (the adults hobby. aiseh). Haha.

                And off, we headed back to Ipoh. Since we passed by Station 18 on the way home, dad suggested that we jalan-jalan at Aeon ler and so we did. While walking around, bumped into Pei San. So long never see her ady but her absolutely tall height makes her easily spotted. Wkakaa.:P Since we check out the cinemas (not to catch a movie but to see what movies are showing now. Lol), I bought this BBQ popcorn limited time only at TGV cos I remembered my eldest bro saying it tastes not bad wen. The popcorn had this strange but nice taste at the same time ler but after eating too much, felt ulwehs and lips were really dry dee. Omiemo. 

                Although it was a short drive up to Sitiawan, it was still quite enjoyable ler.=) It made me feel like blogging about my Sarawak trip again (which is long overdue). There are other things that I'd like to blog too, like my Form 6 life and my current dilemma now. But you know that feeling of 'ermmm.. A bit lazy now la..Wait first laa..'?? Haha. Its call Procrastination. zzZz. I found out something new too, that 'Pro' comes from the latin meaning 'for' and 'cras' in latin means 'tommorow'. So that means, for tommorow. Makes so much sense ryte? For lazybumbums. Wakakaa.

                Had a terrible tummy ache for the past two days too. Ulwehs. Remember that horror show I was talking about earlier? I finished watching it!!! The title's The Master's Sun.:)) It's not that scary as I thought after all. The ending tied up all the loose ends very nicely also. A cheerful and happy endingg.:) At first, there were many scary ghosts that pop up in the show ler but later on, most ghosts appear as the sad, helpless and sympathetic kind. Its actually quite a meaningful show cos there's many different sub-stories in it altogether. There's 17 episodes overall so in almost each episode, a different ghost appears. The story that surrounds their death is unravelled and an honest revelation comes to light. The development of the storyline towards the end was good too. And the synopsis? It's about this girl who is able to see ghosts and is afraid of them but it makes them go away when she touches the main guy character. =) Ohya, rating it 4 stars ler. Hehehee. I'm liking the OSTs as well.

              Okay, I got lots of time to type thats why I'm here, more frequently than I should. Haha. I'm chao-ing for now. Tata!:)