This and that

    I think I still have a lot of catching up to do on studies especially on accounts. Aahs! Finals for Sem 1 commences in exactly a week's time but I've been watching drama and idling away. Ohnoo. This sem, I had had this tendency of having a 'mind shutdown' during account lessons despite it being my major. TT. Don't ask me why..Whuahh. Sometimes, I feel like I've walk out of class 'empty-handed', with little or almost nil knowledge for the day. I also still find it difficult to wake up for 8a.m classes after almost the end of 14 weeks. I often rush to get myself ready before class simply because I can't and don't want to get out of bed earlier. Huhu. I wonder how can there be such a big change when I used to wake up at 5.50am everyday back in form 6..TT

Nvm nvm, when there's a will, there is definitely a way!! Right?? I gotta jiayouh liao. :))

Yesterday, I felt a lil' blue somehow. Then, I realise how I didn't get to thank all my lecturers before the start of study break. When I think of it, its such a short time they've taught me yet I had this compelled feeling to thank them. To tell you guys, I've been reading this book I borrowed from the library called 'Don't Sweat The Small Stuff'. Its just a book with lots of simple reminders about life. Each chapter is at most 3 pages long. (Now you can guess why I borrow this book aite?? Wkaka). There's nothing really outstanding about the book but there's definitely a few things that we can be reminded about through this book. I didn't get to finish a few chapters of the book though cos I returned it to the library. Haha. But one of the gentle reminders the author tells us is to thank people in our life. Maybe I'll share what I've read next time. First, let me go finish reading it dulu!! 

Just the past week, it was our timetable bidding week for next sem. We did quite a bit of a planning ahead. Ann Gie, Lee Mee, Kit Kat and me. We had our plan A for timetable, plan B as an alternative, replaced our class a day earlier so that we were unoccupied during the bidding time and re-scheduled our timetable to Plan C due to a 'false alarm'. In the end, it all went to waste because we couldn't get any of the subjects that we wanted or time slots. According to the seniors, bidding session is like war. The thing is, they forgot to mention that it was an unfair war! Haha. We didn't even have a chance to choose the subjects that we want although there were so many spaces left available so we ended up having Koku which has 2 credit hours that's all. Lol. Luckily a day or two later, there were some subject options open to everyone so we chose what was remaining left and available. Sad case betull.

 Later during the bidding day, the four of us headed to Bo Eight Tea to grab a milk tea each upon my suggestion. While ordering, we happened to see some board games at the front counter. We wanted to play 'Monopoly' but Kitkat discovered another game. I'm also not sure but I think its the first time I played this game. Its called 'Aeroplane' (directly translated from Mandarin). The point of this game is to be the first to have all four houses safely back 'Home'. It was quite fun and funny 'kicking' everyone back to their original starting point. Hahaha. It was like reliving those childhood moments once again. =)

On another note, my dad advised me to open my heart towards new things. To save the matters close to my heart for some other time, I actually do have a few things in mind that I wish to try given the chance. I just never acted on it. I sit on it. Hehee. Anyway, this list of things isn't really significant nor will it impact greatly on my life but its just a few things that I want to fulfill in time. A to-do list. My bucket list. Hehee. Also, I skyped with my 2nd bro last week for an hour. It felt nice because it has been so long since I really had a proper long chat with him. :)

After 3 months, my saga car is finally back in Ipoh. Woohoo! :D I forgot to mention earlier, I'm having a one week study break so that's why my car is back ler. Lastly, just wanna wish all the best to all form six students and my form six friends leaving for studies. Local U, Private U, ganbateh to everyone! :)

Tumpang Home

        It was nice to have my housemate fetched me back to Ipoh. Thanks Chan Jant. :) Earlier, I was thinking if we'll have things to talk about since we haven't had much of a chance to get to know each other before this and we're just familiar around each other as housemates. I happened to tell her I felt like eating ice-cream before leaving the house and she had to go to PETRONAS, so in the end..we had ice-creams at the petrol station before heading home. Hehee. Throughout the journey, we chatted about random things in the car bout ourselves, studies, songs and stuff. Before I knew it, we were soon back at Ipoh. The journey didn't seem long at all despite a bit of a traffic jam. I guess time actually flies when one is having a good time. I kinda wish the journey home was a little longer so that our conversation didn't had to end so abruptly, so that we could have chatted more. Cos it was unexpectedly relaxing and comfortable to chat with her all the way back while my music playlist was playing on her car stereo set. Moreover, it's the first time we really had a decent conversation since we both shifted in in May. :)

Tommorow, I'm heading to Sekinchan to spend my hari raya break wif my family and relatives. Whees! I need to study too at the same time for two more mid-term papers. Aihss. But just hope I'll feel refresh and prep up for uni life again after I'm back. =) 

Run Free

I wish I could go for a live concert now.

Thank you dear piano, for the comfort and refuge when I need one.

When I don't feel like telling anyone how I feel,
When I feel a surge of emotions and let it out,
When I'm bored, carefree or zoned out,
When I feel a void in my heart,
When I feel hyped up with energy and enthusiasm,
When I hear a new lovely record or track,
When that One unforgettable song gets stuck in my head,
Drumming in my ears softly; quietly; loudly,
Over and over again,
When I simply feel like listening to the rhythm of musical notes.

So I let my fingers run free,
To endless stream of music,
Removing my walls,
Brick by brick,
And let my fingers run free.

I don't play the best music,
But listening or playing it,
I feel a depth of familiarity,
Of comfort,
Of enlightenment,
Which keeps me going,
When life gets to me.

Thankiu 'hak pak' keys. U've been my 'second remedy' to my pillows, bed and blanket. :)

Foodey food

Hi hi :)

I'm back in Ipoh during the weekends. So I thought of blogging before I nomad back to Kampar.  Currently in the midst of completing assignments and in less than 2 weeks time, its mid-term test alrd. Soo fast!! Omo.

Anyways, Thursday was a cheerful day. :) While having break in between classes, my uni friends and I went to the library. While waiting for time to pass, I received a text from my housemate 'neighbour', Mae Jean, saying 'Hello. Later lunch together!' So we did. :) Just like the week before but at a different venue. This time, she suggested Sushi King and off we went.  She said she was full after waiting for me since 11 (cos my class ended at 1.30) but when we arrived there.....she ate like a Pig! Haha. Since we both happen to like tempura, we shared a set together besides eating sushi off the sushi belt. Yum yums! It was great meal. Hees. :D (As long as I didn't think too much of the price of food). Nyek nyeks. After that, we decided to walk around Tesco to so called 'digest food'.  I dunno how but we ended up doing nonsense. Besides some silly things, we started smelling all kinds of shampoo, lotions etc just like those doggies. Aiyoo. Haha. Later, I helped her choose a pair of flip flops and tried finding her slipper size also (which there was none cos of her kici mayung feet. Aduii, around size 3 and 4 leh! Omo). At last, she got a pair of zebra flip flops for rm5 (within her proposed budget. haha) We bought toilet clorax also. There were 2 pieces in it so we decided one for me, one for her simply because she likes to see the blue colour in her toilet bowl. I kinda like it too. But what an excuse to buy things. Haha!

A day earlier, my uni assignment partners made plans for Thursday evening too. So I fetched them from their houses on that day (since I was the only one wif 'modern transport' = car. hoho). We then went to settle our textbook orders. That was our main 'objective' of meeting up actually - To go order our textbooks together. Haha :) And since we were already out together, we decided to try out a new café nearby as well. Before this, four of us have been having breakie and lunch meals at the uni cafeteria almost everyday except Fridays. So that was our first time eating outside. :) Since it was served in those mini steamboat pots, we ordered tomyam and curry. Shared ler.

By the time I reach home, it was quite late alrd. I thought over and realized how I did nothing productive for the day except attend my classes. When I think of how much $$ flow out of my pocket for that day also, T.T..I don't want to think about it too much.:S At the same time, I had an enjoyable day too. :) It was one of those days where I did nothing but felt cheerful as well. Makes sense? Hehees. At least, I had an outing once with my uni freinds although it was just dinner (missing one member tho). I also discovered happiness in sharing food. It really doubles the happiness.:)) Not only one gets to try different dishes but the amount of $$ splits too! I get to save some $$. Hehe. :) Ehh, come uni starting to feel the pinch of negative cash flow already. Talk about getting hit hard on the head with reality! Gee gee gee. That's why I always return to my 'chap fan' category everyday where I save most. :) Thursday was an exception! 

Okies. That's all for now. Bye blogsphere.

Anyeong!

I'm watching this now. Hees :D 

Its called *look above*, My Love From Another Star. The drama's a recent mega hit when it was telecast in Korean channels but I've just started watching it. I'm on episode 2 only but suddenly find it niceee lor. :D I wasn't drawn into watching it earlier but I think I've had a change of heart!! (or is that a change of mind??!) Anyways, I got it transferred to my hard disk from my mom's hard disk wan so I don't need to wait for the video to load. Hehe. The wifi speed in Kampar is likeasnail wan. I don't think I can load vids with the unstable wifi connection at my Kampar residence. Luckily I've found something to look forward to when I can't go online. Oohoo! :)

My classes has officially come to an end of Week 2 and Monday comeee, its gonna be Week 3. *feel like inserting the Whatsapp emoticon with the one that has the 'Gee Gee Gee' feeling when I see it* The teeth-clenching one! Gee gee gee.

So far, I'm quite contented wif my rented room despite the daily 'visits' from my kingdom Animalia friends and the slightly leaking roof. Haha. To be more specific, the Insecta kingdom. My few housemates that I met have been very nice to me for the past two weeks also, especially two of them. They took me out for a movie, pm and dinner a few times. Gomawo. :) For my course, assignments are heading my way. Since I have 6 subjects this sem, there's 5 group assignments now. One individual one later. Aahs! FA1 assignment, how to do ler.

My daily concern now also : Banana me. Everyone speaks in mandarin wan here so I need to speak too. Speaking in mandarin as far as my vocab permits, getting mixed up with the Cantonese slang and inserting English words whenever my mandarin 'resources' fails. I feel like my tongue's tangled by the end of the day. Haha. But nvm, I shall Hwaitingg!! In what we call in uni as broadening  one's soft skills competency!! Wkaka :) Above it all, I want to understand what people are saying in mandarin esp those lengthy conversations instead of just listening passively to them oni while spending half the time trying to figure out what they're saying. Omo.

Form 6

Many said it’s a tough road, some considered it as their last option, others never had that as part of their plan after spm.

Then, who are the ones who came here? Some were obliged by our parents, some chose to stay on after secondary school, some didn’t have better alternatives or had nowhere else to go, some didn’t know where to go or what to pursue next after finishing spm, some came here because of the inexpensive education, some seek for the recognition leading to various opportunities that may follow, some saw it as a challenge in oppose to the general stigma of its pre-university education standards. All of the above I think, is undeniably in general, true.

So we were the guinea pigs under the new tri-semester system. The first batch. The pioneers! Ahems.

The truth is, it took me quite some time to adjust to everything. The new school, the new environment, the demanding syllabus, the new people and so on. In Lower 6, there were times when I felt small, lost, uncertain, butterflies in my stomach and just plain blur about many things. I was just one of those students adapting ‘here and there’. It was upper 6 that open my eyes to the  fact that I am actually happy to be here and indeed very thankful that I chose to do my pre-U here, in ACS. (Actually it was my very own choice to come here from the start. Hehee).

I know its quite late to post about Form 6. But I still wana blog about it. nyehehe. :) So a summary of what my Form 6 life was like :

Prefects. I think I was almost always a prefect. In ACS, I think the best lessons I've learnt from were during the probationary period. It was the time when I was busiest, enjoyed myself tremendously but also felt very stressed up about my priorities. Many times, I felt a sense of regret for being so actively involve in this board that I wondered why I joined prefects in the first place. Huhu. Also because we were called in for the compulsory committee interview, I opted for a behind-the-scene post aka as a secretary but BAM! Was given the post to deal with people upfront everyday. Zzz.

Unlike MGS, being a prefect here is different. Many teachers disregard the prefects here as an ineffective student disciplinary board and also pinpoint that among us, there were many black sheeps. And that's the difference. The board here was less rigid and open doors to many students giving them an opportunity to be a prefect. Its not better nor worse but different. It was in the end a good place to learn. :) The short stint that I had with Ms Josephine who was the assembly teacher-in-charge in Lower 6 was a great guidance for me throughout the following year as a LHP. I really thank her for that. :) I guess in the end, joining this board had its pros and cons. Furthermore, a few of my quite close buddies belonged to the board too so that's a Pro. YAY! :)

Time. Time was a very precious commodity. There's really not much time during the weekdays once there's classes, tuitions, weekly compulsory labwork, semester assignments, staybacks after school hours and homework to juggle everyday. It’s like Form 5 lor. So I had this habit of counting the number of hours I get to sleep every night before I go to bed back then. Haha. If I’m lucky, I get 6 hours of sleep. If not, I get 4 to 5 hours daily. Maybe its considered a lot already for a student. I don’t know. Huhu. But I spent lots of time outside going back and forth to tuitions; attending tuitions. If I have the chance, I took really quick naps in between. Naps are like a school-day luxury. :)

When I’m at home, I work on my endless pile of MUET homework – The major source of homework. Aahs. During holidays, we usually have assignments and lots of MUET homework too. Sokleng’s class no MUET homework at all under her teacher so can you imagine! So holidays aren’t really ever holidays for my class. Hmfs hmfs. The only reason why I was always so determined to finish MUET in particular was because Ms. Mindy, my Muet teacher, will erupt into volcanoes if we don’t hand them up on time. One big problem of all about time though lies with me. I have really poor poor time management skills. :( I really have to try to buck up on this area.

I joined afew stuffs for co-curriculum but I think overall, I was actually quite passive in ACS except carrying out my assigned prefect duties. I enjoyed being part of the badminton club. All we usually do is play for awhile and get free ‘Sauna’ later since no fans there plus its indoors. I joined the mix-doubles badminton compe with my deputy too, Aron, and we were so ‘lucky’ to get a draw in our first round against the mix-doubles pair who emerge as champions for that category. My Maths teacher and a student. So embarrassing. Hahaha.

I also joined scouts. My favourite scouting moment was probably helping out the juniors during their annual year camp. Helping to tie knots, going for mamak for breakfast and sitting under the scorching sun in the middle of the field surrounded by bamboos having a heart-to-heart talk. It was a memorable dayy. :D The rest, we mostly sat indoors during our meetings. Ohh, it was through scouts that I passed my first-aid test course too. Yipees! However, the certificate is valid for three years only. I was also part of GBP which represents the Student Body but we didn’t do much in this society.

I was in the Bio class. I took General Paper, Bio, Chem and Maths T. Every subject was difficult during different sems. The syllabus covers quite a lot, so it can be tough. However, it was interesting and challenging also though. For General Paper, we studied anything for our core topics and anything extra to improve our general knowledge ler. Some of the things we learnt are about the GE process, how our nation is governed, national policies and leading global movements. Since we cover the fundamentals, all this things that we come across in the news daily finally makes a lot of sense to me. Yehh! :D For bio, chem and maths, there are times when I really liked it and times when I don't feel like touching the book at all. Depending on my mood and whether I understand or not. Heheha.

For the two science subjects as well, we get the chance to do a lot of labwork. We have to share certain apparatuses but we still get to do them individually. It was fun testing and identifying the properties of chemicals for chemistry. Bio was not so fun for me somehow. Huhu. We have assignments on a semester basis too but we still survived nonetheless. I liked my Muet group very much too cos we have lots of irrelevant things to talk about when we got together as a group. It consisted of me, Kiir, Xiang and Anthony. I think all in all, we really work together well as a team despite our differences. We're also the only group that were grouped together by teacher herself and we had this motto, “Just freestylee”. Haha. We all did okay at last and the day we finished MUET exam, we lepak-ed at old town for breakfast happily. Wkaka. :)

Teachers. I had a dedicated Maths T teacher, Pn Kwan, someone I’d look up to in Form 6 and feel sorry to disappoint when I did badly for maths. Really. Huhu. Then there’s a stricter teacher but has a soft spot for us all the same like Ms Mindy, my Muet teacher. She's the one who knows us best. There are teachers who didn’t care much as to what we do in class too and those are the classes where we created a lot of chatter noise. Regardless, all the teachers who have taught me in form 6 are all of whom I’m grateful to have. Arigatoo. :)

Friends. In lower 6, I had one or two friends that I often stick too, others I just knew here and there. It was upper 6 that took a drastic U-turn. I got to know almost all of my classmates in person and knew them much better by the end of the year that I wish I didn’t have to leave Form 6 so soon. 6AE’s cool and unique cos we have all kinds of people in it actually. Kaka. Studious, weird, shy, talkative, loud, strange, noisy, crazy and a bit of everything altogether. Just like rojak lo. :D I met some really nice friends around in ACS whom I felt totally comfortable to speak out my thoughts at ease, went on several gang outings when we were free, had spontaneous yumchas especially on Fridays, played card games like Uno and the ‘piggy’ game during our free periods after Muet exam, lepakss, ‘played’ during chemistry lessons and so on.

I think with different clique of friends, I did different things with them. :) In ACS, I totally learn the meaning of Lepak! Hahah. I had a few really bitter experiences too that made me learned about people, my own beliefs and to stand on my own feet. I also want to say this, I’ve change my perspective of guys a little. Actually, I always have this negative impression on them (excluding within my family circle. I also dunno why), but after getting to know some of them in Form 6, although I still feel awkward if I had to deal with guys personally, I think actually they can be really weird but surprisingly really nice and soft at heart too sometimes. :) All in all, I think the my friends in Form 6 are a friendly, happy, nice bunch. :)

In the end, how tough Form 6 is depends on the person. For me, it was like two to three levels up higher from spm. It was a tough ride but in the end, I still learnt quite a fair bit. I'm not sure as to how much Form 6 impacted me or if it mold a significant change in me, but deep down, I know the answer to an extent, it does.

Bits, of late

I received my UTAR offer letter last week.

I drove down to Kampar to check out my accommodation yesterday morning. Its my first experience driving on an 'almost-highway-like' road accompanied by my dad by my side and mom at the backseat. The accommodation is decent (from what we saw) but I still felt a tinge of sadness that I'm gonna leave home soon although its not that far away from home. Just a 40 minute drive back to Ipoh. I guess studying in Form 6 made me a much 'home-lier' person than I thought I was. :/ On the bright side, I hope to have good housemates. Hope they're nice. :)

24th April. Received my overall results for STPM. I should just say here. Its definitely not 4 flat. Its actually way off the perfect score or even a decent average score. I got 1B+, 2Bs and 1C. I guess getting my initial for a grade isn't a good thing at all. Of course I feel the big fat regret. Partially for my half-hearted attempts and mostly because of my lack of focus throughout Form 6. A big portion of it as the latter. It was really my fault for not being able to overcome those shortcomings. Aihs. However, in terms of my experience gained in Form 6, I wouldn't trade that with anything else. :) In fact, if given a chance, I would certainly like to re-live my Form 6 life with a better grasp of what to expect but it's just a thought, reflective but actually insignificant at this point alrd.

Leaving that aside, I went shopping with my mom today.:)) Really shopping. :D Given the freedom to shop, without feeling guilty of keeping others waiting (aka my dad. HAHA), we did so cos dad wasn't wif us. We bought a lot of stuffs, a new iron, kettle, curtains and clothes. I've never tried out so many clothes in my life before. Hehhee. We were even lucky that what was on our shopping list was on sales. Bedsheets and pillows. It was a 1 hour promotional deal and it saved us some cash. :)) Mom must have spent a lot (thankiuu) and she said jokingly that its a pay forward sum which I'll have to deduct from my bank account and repay her back later in the future (when I'm older). Haha. :P

Ohya, lately, I love eating things that 'explodes' in my mouth. YUMSS. Like the cherry tomato on a hot plate, the yellow bun sold at dimsums and peanut butter doraeyaki. How it bursts and the fillings slowly fill my entire 'mouth cavity'. Wkakaka.  But the catch is to eat it and not spill it all over the place. I happened to dirty my shirt while eating doraeyaki today at Jusco food court. Two kids at the next table where their parents went off to buy food got off their seats and came close by to watch as the peanut butter spilled onto my shirt and I tried wiping it off. Aiyoo. I got some 'funny' and curious looks from people who happened to glance at me or look at my tees in particular. The best part was I shopping all over Jusco with that shirt. Haha.

The other day, I bought 3 jeans too. I like the colours. But aahs, why are their pockets made to be fitting in a way that its just too small to fit my wallet, car keys and handphone in it. Or more like, my wallet is too big and bulky maybe. Why can't they design bigger pockets? That's why I actually prefer wearing those loose pants though people always ask me why I wear them? My Muet teacher said aiyoo, crystal, again. En Li tells me that her friends used to ask her why I always wear pyjamas to tuition back then. Aish. Actually cos its comfy and convenient ma though it may look abit sloppy. :P  And I feel safe with the foreknowledge of having my wallet and everything kept tucked in the pockets of my pants.

Other than that, I thought I could kinda 'curi tulang' or be excused from completing my work at my dad's office too. However, dad said I must finish up everything before I leave for uni cos I can't get a job half done and leave it for the next person to finish it. It will be a mess. Noooohhh. Sobsob. But I have to because it makes sense. I'm an unofficial staff. I start work anytime I like, I do work when I want to, I read newspapers during office hours. Wkaka. But I guess in the end, work is work. Omies.

I wish to resolve one thing before I leave uni too.. Time really does tell. When there's no proper advice to take heed and no sure way of dealing with a matter, time is really the best remedy to everything. After yesterday, I think I've done all I can within my parameters.

Also, it was Pei San's birthday that day. Christmasss in April. :D She's a really nice person and friend that I met in Form 6. A major part of my Form 6 memories were with her, so thankiu doink. She'll not read this but gomawo. :)

Days are counting, I should not waste 'em! My holidays I mean. Wonk wonks! :)