It may sound so subtle when putting it into words but if you were in my shoes, then you'll know, it really isn't.
Everytime I think about it even in the slightest bit, tears start welling up in my eyes and flow endlessly down my cheeks. I don't know what hurts me the most ; them, my pride or all that has happened. All I know that it has left a scar within me and this time, I find myself unable to pick myself up like how I always do.
All I know is that even the nicest people have their limits. You lose all that sense of positive thinking because you've tried all the kind of ways to make them realise what's going on and see the point. Its even more frustrating to know that you can never completely back off, let go or ignore them because you've tried and it didn't work. They're always there in your sight or at the back of your mind. The worse part is, there's so much that you had to put up with. So did everyone else, in their own ways.
All I know is that even the nicest people have their limits. You lose all that sense of positive thinking because you've tried all the kind of ways to make them realise what's going on and see the point. Its even more frustrating to know that you can never completely back off, let go or ignore them because you've tried and it didn't work. They're always there in your sight or at the back of your mind. The worse part is, there's so much that you had to put up with. So did everyone else, in their own ways.
Cos the truth is, everyone needs a little bit of everyone. They need you and you need a little of them too.
And so, this vicious cycle repeats.
Except, this time, it has to stop. I don't want to continue to be like this any longer.
Because being so affected by it is and was really one of the biggest mistakes that I've unconsciously made all this while.
Except, this time, it has to stop. I don't want to continue to be like this any longer.
Because being so affected by it is and was really one of the biggest mistakes that I've unconsciously made all this while.
