Little snippets of my life. Or is it?

It was after that day and today that I felt strongly what I want.

So please "give me a chance, give me chance", I pray.

Its Monday and I wore blue to work. Definitely felt a little blue all the way to office yet it turned out to be a pretty good day!

Had a farewell for my two colleagues at The Jungle City last Friday night. Lunch was treated by the managers that afternoon so we went for a 2nd round dinner for the night. That was when I knew there was Monopoly in cards version now dee. Wow, I have been so outdated on board games. I didn't understand how it works so I sat there, contributed my game "knowledge" abit here and there laa. and watched my colleagues play. Definitely exhausted on Friday as we reached home around 1am, followed by a 9.30am to 5.30pm p2 class on Saturday for me. I was super alert the first 2 hours. Subsequently, my head was just drooping and I went into "fishing" mode. Hahaha. I felt sleepy due to the day before and week at work.

I am also grateful at work thus far due to the friendly colleagues and mostly because, I can very much be myself here alike to what my usual self is outside the office. If I were to compare my present firm with my internship firm, the apparent difference is that there's less of a corporate image to keep up with at Pwtc area (which is to me, a very good thing). Hahaha. I felt this much when I was handling my client's audit at the same building with my internship firm at Klcc area. It was evident, the differences which I could realize. Even the air is different. Haha

Today, I started the conversation first and my deskmate was different. Something I could feel deep down that was different today, we could talk casually like friends do and did not give out the temperamental cold shoulder to each other that we have had occasionally. He also calls me by my "twin's" name, apparently I have a "twin" now at the firm. Zzz. Haha. I don't know what will happen tomorrow or the remaining days to come. However, I know that should I ever leave, I would always apologize to him for the first day because I was being unnecessarily cold and quiet to him that day. My awkwardness has caused me to act that way which I honestly felt apologetic later on. Strangely, I was friendly to everyone else except him. After that day, I promised to be a better colleague. But then, he carried on to treat me that way on certain occasions afterwards for some reasons (of which some I could guess and some, which I truly did not understand). I was okay with him not being ok with me if I did something that upset him but not okay when he did so simply based on someone else's reactions and I could tell intuitively, his baseless assumptions. But after today, I felt slightly better about this whole differences we are having. I really wish to clear these differences once and for all and 'Can't we be like normal deskmates?', is what I'm quietly asking for.

Can't wait to go Genting this weekend and no Saturday classes to attend. Phreee!!

Time to bath and head to bed. :))

2nd week

This ongoing thing makes me feel uneasy, sad sometimes and stressed inside. The sinking feeling when that person is judging me ocassionally based off someone else's reactions and emotions while all along, I just want to know you better. I'll have to constantly remind myself to handle matters like a grown up when it comes to people and their hearts.

Anyway, the week at work was an eventful one. Completed my first stressful job after staying back at the office til 9.30pm on Tuesday for discussion with my accompanying senior and waking up early in the morning to get the working papers done. Wow, I was so glad to close the file til the expected queries are brought forward in future. Til then.

My second job was a breeze at my client's office. Its surprising that a colleague of mine will open up to me during our job together. It is a heartwarming feeling when someone willingly opens up to you.

Friday ended on a crazy note as the office held at a company dinner in the occasion of the partner's birthday. It was held at Elegant Inn in a 10-dishes Chinese cuisine style dinner. Dishes were yummy, the atmosphere was a mix of formality and casualness. Surrounded by pretty good company too. Overall, it was a well-organized and enjoyable dinner (minus the table list arrangement). We, the new staffs, definitely felt like the extras when we couldn't find a table with seats enough for 5 despite arriving early. Hahaha. Anyways, towards the end of the event, someone started this 'train line' thingy around the restaurant. As more and more people joined in the crowd, the line became longer and longer. While music was playing, we were following to the beat and singing out loud to the lyrics. It was definitely a cheesy yet a ber-bonding moment. :) There was an angpow giveaway session to us as well and woww!! I felt lucky. The amount I received was the biggest angpow I ever had in my life leh. Jaw dropped a while when my colleague pulled out the notes from his angpow. He and I received the same figure. To keep it a suspense, its a 3-digit figure. My other colleagues also received either a 2-digit or 3-digit figure. Of course the 2-digit one will jokingly fuss a little, like the girl colleague beside me. Hahaha! :)

2moro is a new week at work again and home. Its time to start recapping on my studies after attending the weekly P2 classes as well. Its only I haven't got the mood to do so yet. Hehee.

That's all for now. Ciao!  

Hatyai, work & classes

Hatyai trip with my mom and relatives was all about food, shopping and temples. We went to a few night markets, checked out a shopping mall or two and visited the elephant ride park. There was this restaurant we dropped by for lunch which had a spectacular view of the city from the hilltop. Lovely place for food and ambiance. Food prices were reasonable too whereby we ordered several Thai dishes and in a round table environment.

When my uncle suggested if we would like to visit the elephant ride park, I was very keen to go there. Once we arrived at the park, there was the signboard displaying the prices of various rides and attractions. I was thinking 'How nice if I could try the elephant ride' but looking at the price and doing the mental calculation from thai baht to ringgit, sigh, about RM60 per ride. Ok la, I'll just watch out for the elephants instead. I approached the elephants enclosure lo. At the first sight of the few large elephants either standing in at a fix position or making their 'passenger' trips, I was pretty awed by the sight. Their sheer size alone and large pink ears. Its not that I haven't seen one before, it has just been a long time since I last went to the zoo. Lol. Anyways, mom helped to snap a few pictures for my cousin, me and herself and when we were done, I stood there for quite some time just simply observing the elephants, the saddle on their backs as well as the elephant riders. The longer I stood there, my awed feeling somehow subsided and I was thinking what if these elephants were carrying people against their own will. Having to support the weigh of the tourists that it carries for several trips a day, I suddenly felt no longer keen to ride an elephant now or in future. I guess as we grow up, our perspectives change.


We also stayed in the oldest hotel in Hatyai. Haha. The toilets were in poor conditions. More like, dilapidated so as for our stay, we always left the room lights on when we went to bed and also kept the toilet door half open even as we bathed. I felt a bit uneasy at times and my relatives all shared the same thoughts. Haha. But all in all, it also means we stayed at a historical place since it is the oldest hotel aight? Heritage site. Hahaha. Overall, it was a good short vacation. :) Tomyam in Hatyai was awesome too! :D

I've started working and classes as well. First week at work was a mixture of feelings. Thankful that the colleagues at work are friendly. They have been nice to me (I hope they'll always stay that way!) and I hope I'll get to know each and everyone better. I attended my first class for Acca P2 at Kasturi College yesterday as well. Signed up for it on Saturday itself and tried out the class. Not bad! It's only a stone's throw away from Petaling Street too so we had dinner there. :)

It's been so long since I last watched a compelling drama. I didn't do so during my break earlier so I wanna binge watch some nice shows and read on news during my free time.

Praying for the best and to anyone who reads this, have a good week! Hees :D