Life has been strenuous indeed but I learned. Then again, I've met people who shared their own struggles and because of these batchmates and people I've met, whom we laugh, have lunch and share light conversations with to personal heart to hearts, they've lighten up my days at the firm. :) Whenever I needed someone to seek opinions for or seek help whether it comes to audit assignments, admin tasks or etc, there they are (we don't have just non-work banter of course :P) Especially when it comes to my first time, a friend indeed really eases my inexperience. Similarly, I offer my help whenever I can. I guess everyone has their own personal struggles and we just try to lighten each other's weigh whenever we can. We all go through it, whether we like it or not, in a different kind of way. Working at the firm is much happier with these bunch of people. :) I know of those who wish to leave soon, and those that may/will leave at anytime and when that day comes, I'll be sad. I don't want that day to come so soon but when it does, I'll wish them best of luck. Having one less friend whom I can share my stories/days only makes me feel a lil' disheartened at the thought of it, and it also reminds me to always remain independent by learning to stand on my own feet.
Also, I've always noticed. Notice your presence and absence, but never reacting to it nor showing my response. You'll never realize perhaps, not back then; not now and not in the near future. I always did want to smile back but didn't dare to look back at you in the eyes. But I've always wanted to smile back. I wish one day you'll look and smile directly at me like back then. Perhaps, I'll have the courage to look up and smile in return this time. Not sure if it makes a difference, Perhaps, I just want you to know, I noticed and I do care.
