Initially, I didn't realise anything. As I had more lessons, not only did I learn how to drive. But I learnt a couple of things. Usually, after every driving lesson, I'll think back about my driving. Anyway, during amali, I had this Indian man who taught me. He wasn't that scary actually but somewhat becos its the first time driving, I was quite nervous and he nag quite alot too but not in a fierce tone. YET, after the lesson, I felt a lil' moody. At what exactly, I don't know. Then, during the 10 hours thing, I got my real instructor. At first, I didn't notice. But after having had so many hours of driving with my instructor, I still hate driving but not as much as before. Actually, the first two hours of driving was fun!Hees :) Initally, I was problem-free with the slope. Well, initially, that is.
All was fine until my last lesson. That's when I was driving alone as usual at the slope and I overshot the yellow line. That's when I realise Omo! I never learned to repeat a slope before because all this while i've been practicing slope without my instructor. And everytime, I don't know if its sheer luck or what, I always manage. So later I told my instructor about the problem of failing my first attempt then he asked me to try the slope again and so I did. This time, it worked on the first try again but he told me to repeat. So he taught how to reverse. On the second slope attempt, failure! Third, failure! Fourth, more failure! Then he told me to repeat almost at least 10 times. I know i'm suppose to be upset at myself! But then it didn't felt that way. As soon as the countless repetitions were over, I was actually feeling calm and that itself was quite surprising already. That's when I realised that all this while I never noticed. Not once did my instructor raised his voice at me during all my driving lessons. Not once did he nag like some old grandma. When my engine died during my first lesson, instead of raising his voice, he told me to be calm and restart the engine. Everytime i make a mistake, he would point out the mistakes and teach me the right way it should be done. Not once during the time when he asked me to repeat the slope did he scold. Instead, he told me its not that hard and gave me tips. Then I knew what it was, patience. He has this patience that unlike many people, wouldn't have. I think if its my dad teaching, the outcome would have been entirely different. First would be the lava spilling all over(nagging) followed by the volcano eruptions.HAHAHA.:)
Next, I saw this girl a few times before this. During ceramah,amali and today i saw her again during driving. Not just saw actually but somehow I always end up being somewhere in her presence.Lol. So I can hear how she talks to people. At first, I didn't realise a thing but after today, I realised that really, there's something about her that is always confident. Not in the bossy way of course but everytime she does things and all, there's this air of confidence around her(And don't imagine got a halo above her head okiee). I can't tell you how i know ler. Its like how i can't tell you why u are not an ape but a human.:D Kiddins. Anyway, although I don't know her true colours in person but the thought that came across my mind is that I'm not that kind of person. A person who can be so sure of everything, so decisive and confident. Of course, by being confident, the person has to be humble at the same time. Confidence is somewhat a trait I feel that is quite foreign to who I really am. I might be partially confident but I don't think I ever was completely sure and truly confident with myself before.aisehh.
So yes, I'm always so blur and never realise things like these. I'm no observant person you see. Like how i always walk in canteen and bump into people because i never watch where i'm walking. eheh.:P Its the ordinary things that people do in their ordinary lives that go unnoticed. That's why, today, i took some time to pause,think and reflect. :)
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